Lies

I thought you were confused,

Indecision and bewilderment woven into your eyes so blue.

But you knew it was me all along.

Its taking almost everything I have to stay strong.

Everyone laughed when she asked you for me – not a chance.

So it was my mistake that I believed with me you would go to the dance.

My mistake; I guess it always is.

It was my mistake thinking with you I would share my first kiss.

My heart is breaking – this has happened before.

Now I know not to believe in fairy tales and lore.

My heart says to stay hopeful – things will look up.

But my mind is screaming to give up.

I'm sick of trying.

Inside I feel like I'm slowly dying.

You have broken me.

You would know if you cared, or even if you see.

You're still beautiful, and it kills me inside.

Even worse that my trust in you survives.

I need to move on,

Even though I've tried and failed all along.


-KJR
11.17.10